Kusubiri [To Wait]

Looking Ahead - The Eli Whitney Bridge

Spring arrives at 1:48am. The snow has gone. Temperatures are edging up into the 50's. Gray and brown are giving way to green. The air is pregnant with possibility. It is the time of the year when I get restless. 

As March gives way to April, I sit expectantly. Life is about to change. In '05 it was my pending exit from SOTV. In '06 it was Harvard vs Yale. In '07 it was Kiswahili in Kenya. Now, in '08, it is funding to study Clinical Pastoral Care in Tanzania from June through August.

All I can do is wait and hope tenaciously. 

It is a bit nerve wracking and stressful.  I try to fight the urge to nervously craft back-up plans B, C, D, & E . . . but I am a planner and a dreamer. I can't help myself.

It would be a lot easier if I didn't try to push the envelope. It would be less stressful to follow the tried and true, well established path that was clearly created for a reason and works for the vast majority of folks in my program. It also wouldn't be me. 

For better or worse, the unique blend of interests, passions, and joys that make me - well - me, are continually leading me down the road less traveled. I really can't complain. While the lack of a clear cut life path or career trajectory can be frustrating at times, I have to admit that I've had a pretty good ride so far. 

Lookin g ahead -whether it be the program this summer, my final year at YDS, or a job description that seems tailor made for my interests/ background/ education/ experience - I have to follow that all-too familiar stirring in my heart, trust that things will work out, and then wait some more.